Daring does not mean living by the edge; It means knowing that we can do today what we failed to do yesterday!
#MOI I invite you to check the books, the characters, & their lives. I tell you the following: if you get a chance to read my books, remember it’s a life, not a book; it’s a woman, not a character; it’s a reality & not a story!
Sometimes we miss those special ones, & other times we miss keeping the special ones… A morning thought that made me realize that, in both cases, they are no longer around!
#MOI Hold on to those special ones! Check the books, they lost loved ones while alive, under different circumstances; and check your life… Are they all still there!
A phone call from the past! Yes, the past called and I had no reaction…
Many will be happy, have chills, remorse, gags, and many will have regrets… I, had, nothing. None. Nada. Am I dead inside? Is the past dead to me? Am I in a good mental shape or not?
On one hand I had zero emotions toward the past, & on the other hand, I was concerned when my daughter’s dog didn’t have dinner & I couldn’t communicate with him, so I hand fed him.
So, dear past, what have you done to me?
#MOI wondering whether in psychology there is something called a split emotion!
Cheers to the past that made me the woman I am today.
I love the serenity of the early morning hours when the wind is storming and when the lightning is cracking the skies; it is some rare moment when I feel my soul uniting with the universe and soothed despite the tempest, every roar and light…
Why, I asked myself, simply because it reminds me of myself and every one of us; all it takes is to feel understood, all it takes is to see each other eye to eye, and all it takes is unite and accept each other when held down by storm and living under pressure…
On stormy mornings, when the wind, thunder, and lightning carry us above the clouds, I can hear my heartbeat and think clearly & peacefully, simply because I know we all go through tough times occasionally, and all it takes is some empathy…
As planned by the medical team, she was born on schedule, at the crack of dawn, and brought a burst of new sunshine to my life. She joined her family, the one long waiting for her. The anxiety I was living disappeared the second I held her in my arms; my joy was unexplainable the minute her sister Vanessa woke up in the hospital, left her portable crib, and came running wobbling in her yellow footed pajama, jumped on the hospital bed, put her tiny little hand on the cheeks of the baby, kissed her on the nose, and asked to carry her… and from there on, it was the three of us!
Too many details, but it is was a picture I cannot forget; it was a picture drawn for life in a moment, showing how the future will be.
Her name was chosen, came with her, and was sent with her; she was my gift from God and the answer to my prayers; she was a TIFFANY, and that was the meaning of her name.
Being a mom has been my dream since I ever remember, and having a family was my goal. As I said yesterday, it was one item crossed completed on my life bucket list.
Tuesday, January 24, 2023, happened the matching day of the week of her birth in 1995; I am sitting here thinking about every mother’s concern: what will it be? Life is a package of surprises, some we like, some we dislike, but one thing we cannot deny is the amount of love a woman discovers in herself once she becomes a mother. All I can say, you never know how protective you become until you have to protect your child… & you never know how much love you have until you have your own child to love!
#MOI Happy day, it is for me, proud mommy, and happy birthday to my grown lady! Dear Tiffany, here are my 28 wishes for you on your 28th birthday: Live, Love, Laugh, Dream, Live, Love, Laugh, Dream, Live, Love, Laugh, Dream, Live, Love, Laugh, Dream, Live, Love, Laugh, Dream, Live, Love, Laugh, Dream, Live, Love, Laugh, Dream… God bless you with health and happiness!
I came across a memory of 2011 today while going through my memory box; 2011, what a year! It was, literally, the peak heartbeat of my life and a standpoint in my career. I saw it in 2011, beginnings and new beginnings… Career journey: success peak, ending ovation, tears, change of jobs, the grand deception, the truth! Life journey: success as a cook, check the event and recipe, and the three + Ds of life, Dream, Deception, Divorce, Determination, Drama, Damage, Dare, Decisions, Declarations & many more words that became the departure toward my new me!
Extraordinary how far a picture can take us… Regrets, none; I accept the outcome of every decision I made and try not to think about the stupid events that led to where I am today, from love to love.
While opening my memory box, I realized that my strength came from my ability to separate pain from my decisions while moving forward. Detaching and letting go was my gift; & for that, I thank you, Lord! Amen #MOI Born to stand alone, and I did not fail me!
“Focus on who and not what; & mainly remember why you did when the story first started…. The He or She started it, a story said and will always be there.”