“Another Christmas, home, year… and what can I say! Somehow, removing the tree this year was very emotional.
Flashback to the past…to exactly this day. I used to wake up early, warm the house, and start baking and cooking. It’s an important day in our traditions, Jesus’s Baptism. Midnight of the night before, we put a water bottle on the balcony, we make a yeast-free dough and hang it out to ferment, we fry sweets, light candles, and open doors and windows, we pray, because heaven and sky doors and open to receive out prayers as Jesus passes by every home to bless it. The next morning, we bless the house with the water, turn off the light on the Christmas tree, and pack… to another year.
I love the season, and yes, Christmas should not be a season as much as it should a spirit, I am reminiscing on a life, not a season. Looking back, and while removing the tree, I started seeing the many trees I had removed in my life, the packing, girls playing with their christmas toys, food, and sweets backing, coffee, and visitors, ongoing… What happened, I guess they grew, they moved on, and today is a day I missed looking at.
I always wanted a plate, and when the plate was offered, it turned out, it the pie I wanted. The pie, is the symbol of ongoing love, ongoing effort to keep the home standing, it’s the symbol of home versus house.
As we say, my mistake, I always knew a family starts with two, and a home needs love to keep warm!” #MOI reminiscing on this exact day throughout my life, it’s time to wipe the tears, and move on.
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*Life’s Detours – Alexandra’s Choices Book by #MOI, Can broken hearts be mended?
*Where is My Angel? Book by #MOI and Read about the role of Faith in my life
*Mommy, I am a PACER! Book by #MOI because I believe that children are the future, the change…
“& day 1, 2022 ended, let’s roll the beads… It is time to accept that the party is over, it’s time to collect our thoughts.
2022 Diary Day 2 Living with my thoughts, working on myself to accept the physical distance separating me from my daughters, I was devastated and anxious because my daughter had food poisoning and I could not be with her. Life, I know you may say, it’s just a passing case, but I had a lot to think about; although she was well taken care of by her boyfriend, yet, it was difficult on me, the guilt feeling of not being with her.
& then the past haunted me, reflected in the post I had on Instagram to launch the year, about holding a grudge and forgiveness. A very deep argument and dilemma knowing I always try to understand people’s actions and deal with them: *can we let go of pain caused by others? *can we forget a pain caused by others? *can we ignore a pain caused by others? Well, depending on the person that caused the pain, our relationship, and their reaction after declaring that we were hurt, this will explain a lot.
Everyone tend to forget or ignore that sometimes the cup might look empty but it would be full of emotions ready to explode! Not every time is your time to stay silent, and swallow your pain, and pretend a specific action never happened… Not every time you can accept to be wrongfully treated… Not every time you have to be the cup, sometimes you have to be the content, you have to speak, revolt, react…
So, if I let go of painful events, I do that for me. I believe that people need to act toward their actions. We cannot un-do or un-say, but we can at least face the person we hurt, yet unintentionally, we should stand by each other for emotional maintenance.
I always say, no one is born with a cup full of pain, but not speaking up when actions stack up, will result, eventually, in a emotional outburst, unexpected, and shocking to others.
I wish I had known how to handle the past, the far past… things would have been different!” #MOI the author of the book, WHERE IS MY ANGEL? Sometimes you speak for yourself, other times you inspire others to speak!
“Diary of a fresh new year… Happy New Year Bee (for Badiaa)… May this year bring you health, wealth, and prosperity…
Day 1… I woke up full of energy, blessed the house, and prayed for God to keep an eye on myself and my loved ones. I actually added a favor… I asked for genuine love, while promising to give myself and that person a chance. Yes, I say, it’s ok to want to be in a relationship, I guess this means that my loved ones are well established and it is time to care for self.
I asked for an adventure, I am so in a phase where I feel that I have a lot to offer, and change is due. People might think, sit down and take a break, a break for me means I am no longer breathing.
I thanked HIM for my health, and promised myself to make my health a priority.
On this first day of 2022, I wish, for peace worldwide, for COVID to end, for everyone to be healthy, for happiness to take over the world, for no one to sleep hungry, for love to prosper, for anything you wish… Happy & Blessed New Year 2022 my friends… #MOI from Beirut with Love!
While sleepless… I watched the most meaningful and emotional movie.
A Beautiful Day in the Neighborhood, I guess will all grew with Mr. Rogers and watched the show, as for me, I did many times!
Wow what a sleepless night I did not regret… I was thinking, and trying to remember my childhood friend, or a toy that was special, or moments that were meaningful… it was a reminiscing night!
Let me ask you, who is your person, as a child, as adult Do you have someone in your life you wish he can understand you Do you believe kindness is the solution Do you think working on your communication can twist the outcome of a situation Do you believe forgiveness will heal you Do you think if people acknowledge the pain or situation they caused you, makes you feel better Do you believe love will heal, we I thing love can revive a dead soul Do you think words will me a difference, well my worlds in my books, did, to me, and I know they inspired many, and I know for a fact that they encouraged many to speak!
Ending with few thoughts A broken adult is stronger than a broken child those who love us, shape us, and those who hurt us shape us, but we make US, as I say always we are born to a fate but destiny is in our own hands Have a great day everyone! From the author
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“Can you break the rituals… Only a few days stand between us and the new year. Those few days will define how the new year will start and be… Break your law of traditions, dare to live and say what’s on your mind, do things differently…
Do them for yourself, not to hurt others. Let the world see and get to know the TRUE & NEW YOU! #MOI & another year… Change regenerates energy!
Day 10 of the Christmas Advent Calendar “Our interests in life draw a picture of us in society, I thought, and rarely can we change it. The problem is when the picture is well defined and we don’t enjoy what we do.” #MOI, the author
Life is short, do what you want when you still can, with your person, & where you want!
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